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If I Disappear

If I Disappear

Current price: $17.00
Publication Date: November 9th, 2021


“This new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.”
Rolling Stone

“An eerie, twisted thriller sure to shake up the most seasoned true crime die-hard."
—Harper's Bazaar

A Most Anticipated Book of 2021 by Rolling Stone CNN • E! Online • Buzzfeed New York Post Popsugar • Woman's Day Crime Reads • Hello Giggles 

When her favorite true crime podcast host goes missing, an adrift young woman sets out to investigate and plunges headfirst into the wild backcountry of Northern California and her own dangerous obsession.

Sera loves true crime podcasts. They give her a sense of control in a world where women just like her disappear daily. She's sure they are preparing her for something. So when Rachel, her favorite podcast host, goes missing, Sera knows it's time to act. Rachel has always taught her to trust her instincts.

Sera follows the clues hidden in the episodes to an isolated ranch outside Rachel's small hometown to begin her search. She's convinced her investigation will make Rachel so proud. But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel. Because Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won't be the last...

Rachel did try to warn her.

About the Author

Eliza Jane Brazier is an author, screenwriter and journalist. This is her adult debut. She currently lives in Los Angeles where she is developing If I Disappear for television.

Praise for If I Disappear

“A slick, smart thriller you don't want to miss.”
Samantha Downing
, bestselling author of My Lovely Wife

“This twisted and riveting thriller is one that will keep you up late at night with suspense.”

“Fans of true crime will devour this mystery.”
E! Online

“Deliciously eerie.”

“Sinister characters and inexplicable occurrences punctuate the dreamlike trance and surreal landscapes in this debut novel, where everything might just be exactly as it seems.”

“A skillful dissection of true-crime podcast culture and those obsessed with it, this new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of SerialIf I Disappear throws into sharp relief how desensitized we can become when we treat real life like a game.”
Rolling Stone

“True crime podcast fans: We've got your next read right here.”
—Woman's Day

“Blending the true crime compulsion of Michelle McNamara’s I’ll Be Gone in the Dark with the immersive creepy-craziness of Gillian Flynn’s Sharp Objects, Brazier creates a heady, pitch-dark cocktail all her own.”
Publishers Weekly

“This author is a breath of fresh air in an oversaturated, congested world of thrillers. Watch out, Gillian Flynn — mystery thrillers have a new ingenue and her name is Eliza Jane Brazier.”
—Pittsburgh Post-Gazette

“Eliza Jane Brazier lays out a thrilling mystery here that plays out in a beautiful, wild setting. What’s not to love?”

“Sleek, exciting, and twisty.”
Rene Denfeld, author of The Child Finder

“A spellbinding tale of obsession and isolation, and the darkness that can unspool when the two intertwine. Thick with atmosphere and dripping with tension, this is a book you’ll want to devour in one sitting—if you dare.”
Kathleen Barber, author Apple TV+ series Truth Be Told

“A clever, sinister read with a surprising sting in the tail.”
Kimberly Belle, author of The Marriage Lie

“A propulsive thrill ride full of surprises right through the firecracker ending.”
Lisa Unger, author of The Stranger Inside

“A wild, thrilling, fast-paced ride from start to finish.”
—Hello Giggles

"Seductively disquieting.”
—Shelf Awareness

“A disquieting and distinctly creepy debut.”

“Subtle, surprising, and genuinely unflinching exploration of our obsession with true crime and the darkness marbling our psyches. With sinewy prose and nuanced observations about the female experience, this debut marks a ferocious new voice.”
Andrea Bartz, author of The Herd

“Every page is packed with feral tension. Fans of true crime podcasts will love the chilling tale Brazier has woven. I won't sleep for days.”
Stephanie Wrobel, author of Darling Rose Gold

“A fascinating, twisty, beautifully written tale with an unforgettable premise and an ending you won’t see coming...a delight from start to finish.”
Louise O'Neill, author of Asking for It

“A raw, searing suspense that also tackles important issues of womanhood and identity. Every page crackles with sinister tension and the haunting setting seeps into your bones. Clever and ominous, this is a thriller you won’t be able to put down.”
Samantha M. Bailey, international bestselling author of Woman on the Edge 

“This sinister take on the true crime media phenomenon is sure to send chills up your spine!”
Katherine St. John, author of The Lion's Den